I feel like a delusional, invisible person half the time, so I need to learn what it's like to be treated well, before it's too late for me.

when you're not mature enough to handle being responsible for somebody
else's feelings, their need is disgusting. When you really love
someone, and you're adult enough to understand that life is a
back-and-forth of sometimes you need and sometimes they need, then you
find somebody else's vulnerability beautiful, and you want to nurture
it, and you want to keep it safe..